I haven't posted for a while. I dunno, I've been up to some stuff. I moved, from Washington to Montana. It's a big change for me cause of my anxiety. But.. ANYWAY!
      I met this guy, his name is Jesse. Currently, he won't really speak to me. He doesn't realize I would do anything for him. Like, ANYTHING. I can't help but cry. It sucks, I know he doesn't love me anymore. And that's okay. I accept it, but I wish he still loved me. There's things in this world that I can't change. All those other guys I mentioned in previous posts, fuck em. I'm not interested anymore. I'm emotionally drained. But he.. He brought me back from the darkness of which I was stuck in. I know, I know, it sounds stupid. I just can't manage without him.. I've been dealing with so much bullshit I haven't had time to focus on him and his needs. I wish I had more time to focus on him. I want him to be the happiest he can be. I just don't know how to make him happy. I don't know what to do. But I won't give up. I wont.

Sorry this was such a short post, not much to say. =3 I'll post again some other time.