Love can fail, yet love can blossom as well. Broken hearts can get worse, or get better from the same person that broke it. Love is a strange thing, crazy even. To be honest, this blog was inspired by the last person who broke my heart. I loved him too much, and I hated it, absolutely hated it. I tried to block myself out from him, be cautious, not get attached, of course, it didn't work. I always try so hard to succeed with that, but some people, very few, make it so easy for me to love them.  I simply can't help it.
     A lot of people tell me not to pay attention to boys because I have a life and a future and blah blah blah. Yet, boys are so.. So much more fun than playing checkers, if you get what I'm saying. Yet, they hurt you when you fall too hard. But who's to blame, a heart needs to be broken once in a while, right? That's how I see it anyway, I lost my train of thought cause I'm talking to someone very, very special to me..
    Ah yes, failing love is what I was talking about. Or that's what I thought I would talk about, the text it right there. The number one cause of divorce in America, is marriage. That doesn't mean you shouldn't get married, just remember, through thick and thing, sick and health, rich and poor. It doesn't matter if you really do love the person, everyone had bumps in the road once in a while. It's not always a big deal, if they cheat on you well that's a different story.. But ask why they did it. I've forgiven so many, and never asked why they would hurt me like that.
     But EVERYONE has bumps in the road, family, couples, and even soul mates. You just can't blame someone because perhaps they had a rough day or the stress was just crushing them. Maybe they over react cause they are SCARED. It's really important, if you want to maintain a relationship, to understand. I understand, fights are usually a relationship breaker, but you can't just give up due to one fight. Stress is such a big element as well.
    I regret so many fights I've had, whether it was with family, or someone else I loved. I always wish I could go back in time, make everything right..


                         ~ Haley J. Goodman

That moment when you talk to that guy that you were madly in love with and he dumped you in the trash, what does it do to you? I just had that moment, and all I can do is hold back my tears and try to smile. The possibility of me ever hating him is zero, I'm too forgiving.. I told him I'd gone to hell and back for him and that I was glad to. He got off the computer, he doesn't want to waste his time with me. And I'm beginning to wonder if the whole relationship was a lie. The thing is, a broken heart doesn't just vanish, it stays with you forever. It hurts like a fire coursing through your body, you can't forget. The hurt is too much, eventually it might just sting but it will stay with you forever.
      His voice, his face, his name is burned into my brain and I would still do anything for him. I don't care what he does or says to me, I simply know I miss him and need him here for me. Yet, of course, God has to deny me that, and I suppose I deserve it. I have made wrong choices, tried to end my life, yet he was there for me..
       Thank you Jake, I'll never forget you..



                               ~ Haley J. Goodman

You know that saying? "Love is a bitch" it is sooooo true. Boys and girls are heartbreakers, in my case, boys are. Now, if you get stuck in a relationSHIT, break it off. I have put up with it way too much, and I shouldn't, yet I do. Now, sometimes a decent guy will run along, but if not.. What can you do? Heartbreaks are bitches, and they occur due to love. Shortest post ever, but who cares!



                        ~ Haley J. Goodman

   Sometime in the future, someone always asks you, "What is love?" It could be your kids, children, husband, boyfriend, or just a friend that simply wants to know your point of view. Maybe they'll have different reasons but, whatever their reason, it's always good to talk about.
   Here's what I think... Love is just something that can make you float in the clouds, or sink to the bottom of the ocean. It can make you nervous, or even more daring. It's an amazing thing, other times, not so much. If you love someone, you love every thing about them. The good, the bad, and the ugly. And it should be both ways, not just one.
    When someone experiences real love, they change in some way, whether it's the slightest bit, or amazingly drastic. Some become more cautious, while others less caring. Some, more sensitive, or hard as a rock. It's hard to explain why, but it's true. And there's no denying it, ask anyone. I certainly changed.
    


                           ~ Haley J. Goodman