That one thing...

    That one thing they say,that just drives you crazy. Makes you cry until 4 in the morning. Where the only thing that holds you together is the presence of that one person who is asleep next to you while you watch a movie.
    He fell in love with my best friend, then he told me he didn't love me the same way. All this I'm not as attached to you bullshit. But that doesn't matter anymore. It doesn't hurt as much. It's a chapter in the past and I've chose to move on.
    Yet, again.. I was told that "my" Teddy Bear didn't love me the same way he used to. I asked myself how many times I must be told this before I realised that I just got old. I bore people. Simple as that. Now, Teddy Bear (I'll stop calling you that eventually), if you're reading this... I'm sorry. Don't feel hurt by what I say, it's just how I feel.
   I sit here, drinking iced tea (bombin'), holding back the tears, yet smiling as well. The place I am provides and environment where pain doesn't hurt as much as before. So, the pain that all this caused, doesn't hurt.. Except for my Teddy Bear. I cried because of how he told me this. Reality frickin' sucks.
    To me, he's perfect. There may be a few flaws, but that doesn't affect how much I love him. He's funny and sweet and he deserves the best. He's beautiful in his own way.. He's sensitive and he gives a shit, which is amazing for a 16 year old male that lives a thousand miles away. He's not afraid to cry, and that's more than I could ask for. When we would Skype, I would try my hardest to make him smile, because that smile gave me butterflies. Seeing his eyes made me feel like everything would be okay. And hearing him say "I love you, Haley" made me think, that for once, someone actually loved me. That this ONE guy, was perfect and could make everything okay. I just wish I could hear him say it one more time..


                 ~H.J.G <3